Saturday, April 17, 2004

Temptation Sucks!

One of my biggest downfalls when it comes to maintaining a healthy diet is sweets, especially chocolate. I have an enormous sweet tooth. If there are pies, cakes, cookies, donuts, candy, or any other sweet treat around, I WILL eat it sooner or later. The temptation is just too much for me to resist.

Yesterday, I went to do my grocery shopping and, of course, they have all the left-over Easter candy prominently displayed and selling at 75% off. I walked by that display several times and did my best not to look at it or think about it, but in the end, I couldn't resist "just looking." Sixteen Ounce bags of chocolate "bunny munny" coins only 41 cents each, WOW! Can't let a deal like that go by! So, what do I do? I end up spending 3 little dollars and bringing home 6 big bags of chocolate! Am I crazy?

Now, it's hidden away in the cupboards, except one bag that I put in the candy dish. I keep telling myself I'm not going to gobble it all down. I'll only allow myself ONE piece every once in a while as a reward for eating right the rest of the time. I'm going to be responsible, or so I've promised myself. So far, I've eaten at least 10 pieces. 3 or 4 yesterday, 6 so far today. Not exactly gobbling it down but not exactly the ONE PIECE reward I planned on either.

Temptation really sucks!

By the way, after I got over my anger and frustration concerning the incompetent doctor I saw on Thursday, I did some research on my own into gastric bypass surgery. The procedure I'm interested in is called the Roux-en-Y gastric bypass. The more I read about it, the more it seems to be the best solution to my problem. It's not an easy solution by any means. It's a painful procedure, requires almost 2 months of recovery time, and will change my life forever, but it's proved to be successful in helping people at my level lose the weight and keep it off. After the surgery, my body will no longer be able to digest fatty foods or sugary foods very well. Eating those types of foods will make me physically sick and nauseous. And I know from past experience that once a food makes me sick, I loose my taste for it very quickly. That's what I need if I'm ever going to break free from my sweet tooth and get this weight off. Now I just have to find a surgeon who will work with me and accept Medicaid. A difficult task in itself.

 

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